Naughty Monkey

2009-08-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

In the midst or all this anger,
my heart cooled down
when Papa said
"Thank you Kakak for everything"

I love you Papa, forever.
Happy 57th Birthday.

2009-08-03T22:39:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I felt so teraniaya today.
Sumpah I'm not paranoid or something

just unhappy.

I wanna complain.

2009-07-06T00:19:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I wish I was hairless
(except for my head and eyes).

And I need sentosa desperately.

All I want is just to run away from
the consequence of a
decision that felt so right yet
it's haunting my nights.

Tapi memang padan dengan muka aku
sebab Lyziana memang tak 'tahu'
nak delete msg2 lama
nan indah.
Sampai bila?
Mungkin sampai saat aku bangkit dari beradu,
dan bukan si dia
di mindaku.

Toodles poodles.

2009-06-10T22:43:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I think I love my job.

Weird, I know but I'm not lying.

I really love it.

So,
after about 2 weeks of not eating well and stuff,
I finally diagnosed myself with L.O.A for Investigation.

Anyway,
we had a 'serious' talk just now,
Juli and I.
And when I said serious, I meant all the funny stuffs.
(including jaga keaiban keluarga sendiri)!

Hahaha!

Juli, kau faham malay aku kan?

And babe, I totally agree when you
said we dont need to be "labelled".
It's just something that can be thrown away when
you dont need it anymore.

So anyway,
since I've lost my appetite,
I'm gonna have more money to shop.
Whee!

Goodnite!

2009-05-06T02:04:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I am glad I let it all out.

I'm sorry.
You know I can never hate you.
And because of that, you often took advantage.

That 3 months changed me.
It shaped me to what I am.

So if you know you are gonna leave,
leave now.
I dont want to go through that period anymore.

PS: You owe me a damn fucking big explanation.

2009-04-23T21:26:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I'm back to square one.

Please spare me all the hurt and pain I went through 3 months ago.

I hate being permanently wounded.

2009-03-25T23:42:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I got my nails done!!!!

Thanx babe, for accompanying me.
Glad I let out the truth.
And I did not lie when I said I love you too:)

I miss the Ashiblie Brothers soooo muuucchhhh!

2009-03-18T23:56:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I'll get very weak when I see cute little kids,
making cute face,
and start calling Kak Lyz or even Aunty Lyz.
And that happened yesterday when I brought
my dear 4yr-old cousin out.
He's so cute! And pelat!
Super cute Bazil Nizam.

Latest news,
I'm BROKE!

Too broke to function.
And I'm still eyeing on a bag.
Damn.

So I'm just gonna say that I am SO

glad I have a BIG mirror in my room.
I reflect myself everyday.
I think about myself everyday.
Blog only about myself and myself.
My world revolves around me, not people that surrounds me.
And that is exactly why I dont need that much friends.

The name Lyz is so nice huh to be put in that
People-to-be-Blamed list?
Easy isnt it?
And I just dont get it why people are so not over
with things that happened many, many, many months ago.
Dont you like get tired?

And I totally dont wanna waste my precious time hating people
coz that's just not me.
I was born to love, not to hate.

I wish you all success in your future endevours:)

PS: Some advice for you dear whom I have been spending some time with during the hols. If you think you got back what you lost, think again. I'm saying this coz you have helped me alot when I was down.

PSS: God! I'm so glad I dont trust anybody, not even myself.

2009-03-10T09:59:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I was awaken by
the wonderful sight of cute birds
sitting outside my window,
chirping to a joyful melody that
I have never heard before.

I felt like Cinderella.

2009-03-09T11:31:00.005+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Mari menyanyi lagu best for all Mama(s) and Papa(s)!

Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh hoola hoop
Bila mama pakai celana
Papa garuk kepala
Bila mama menari chacha
Papa julingkan mata
Bila mama hoola hoop
Bisul papa meletup
Bila mama pakai yengki (yehbaaah!!!)
Papa masam sakit gigi

Hoola la la hoola hoop
Hoola hoop hoola hoop
Hoola la la hoola hoop
Hoola hoop hoola hoop
hoo la la la la
Hoola hoop hoola hoop

Bila papa sedang menyanyi
Mama menari Rock 'N Roll
Papa pakai minyak wangi
Mama mandi air sabun
Papa pakai baju ketat
Mama mulai pakai barut
Papa potong celana singkat
Mama potong rambut kontot

PS: Teringat how my Pak Ngah berhenti merajok after
Mak Ngah mainkan dvd Ismail Haron.

Very comical. Hahaha.

2009-03-06T01:12:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

My New York Cheesecake is a success!!!

Woohoo!

Finally, after thousands of attempts,
I got it right.
(Extra, not a thousand times of course. 3 times only.)

So I think if I continue to feed myself with
delicious desserts everyday,
I will definitely become fatter than I already am.
Like what Mama said, "Gemok macam Flinstone."
Flinstone sey kena. Dia kan boy.-_-

So I had a cousins' day out on last Sunday.
It was kechorable I tell you!
We went to Sentosa (FYI, my fav hang out place),
got a good spot,
got good food,
got caught in the rain,
got drenched,
and got bitten by gazzilions of red ants!
Also it was so not helping that I was super late, causing us to have less time
to loitter around Sentosa
( Sorry peeps, I love you guys too much I made those sandwiches
with my own hands:) )

On a higher note,
we went karaoke.

Yes, all 9 of us,
including my 5 year-old nephew!

Gejala sosial yang sungguh sihat. Heh:D

We have always longed for a reunion.
We finally got one
and I am glad I walked through the rain with you all
that day.
Even though we were drenched, dirty, tired, and broke

to our last penny when the night ended,
it was all worth it.

I love you all, dear cousins.
You guys are my everything.

Sumpah tak tipu!

:P

PS: Malas nak post pictures. Go check facebook if you want one.

2009-02-21T01:22:00.001+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I lied.
I have not move on.

2009-02-18T00:26:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I am so glad that God has created me as
somebody with mediocre looks and fat body,
coz then I would not be a bitch or slut.
Coz I know I am not pretty
and I know where I stand.
I am happy with my flaws.

But I have something perfect that gave me trouble.

I was on my way to my aunt's place yesterday morning when this happened.
CuteButPsychoticStranger:
Wow, thats something!

Me:
Huh?!

CuteButPsychoticStranger:
(pointed somewhere below my neck but above my waist)
Hahaha. Nice...

Me:
F*** YOU!

This happened not just once or twice or thrice
but gazzilion times.
And please stop asking my size coz hell no I'm not telling you.
You maddogs can just continue to drool over it, yar!

PS: Should I be happy or should I not?

2009-02-14T01:05:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

It is Valentine's Day.
And number of wishes I've got:
countless.
Sadly, I dont even know half of them that well.
I thought V-day is only for lovers?

For the past few days
I've been seeing people buying tons of presents
for V-day.
I wanna be a florist so that I can make gazzilions
money on this particular day,
or even week!

Tanpa disedari,
lebih banyak present seseorang tu dapat,
lebih kuat cintanya pada sang kekasih.

Surprisingly true,
tanpa wang cinta akan sedikit hambar.
So mana itu cinta sejati?
Mungkin dah tak ada lagi.

2009-02-14T00:07:00.003+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

So I am officially done with school.
Thank God!

I am lazy to type for this entry,
let pictures do the talking...

we might look like we'd kill one another,
but for most of the time we would kill
for each other...

us then...

12 yrs n still counting...
Lyz Hudson and Ayn Hathaway...:)

selflove...

that's a gift wrapper on my head.
haha, creative!

I love her, Wati.

JOYAH!!!

I was just simply crazy.

wati is the best photographer I've ever met!

love u babe!

Okay! I'm gonna go watch some ghost movie or something.
Bye!

2009-01-26T21:54:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Tadi siang terdengar lagu Ahli Fikir.
Tersangkut pulak dengan perkataan PHD.
Ala, takkan tu pon tak tahu.
Perasaan Hasad Dengki (PHD).

Orang Melayu memang terkenal dengan PHD.
I have to admit that even with this rojak blood of mine,
I'm super guilty of having PHD,
only in a good way.

Tak tahu lah kenapa,
whether it's just me being paranoid or it's the trend during
this part of the year
but everybody around me seems to be getting engaged/married.
I hate it!

Oh dont get me wrong,
I LOVE weddings.
Only maybe all of these coincidently happen
at the wrong time.
And because of that
my perasaan hasad dengki
mula meluap-luap.

Penat, lelah, letih.
Whatever it is, I have to get rid
of this PHD.

And because of that
Lyziana has made a pot of barley water
to cool herself down.

Now back to sketching.

2009-01-25T23:35:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Four more days till I finish
my last hurdle.
It feels just like yesterday...
Anyway, I'm glad it's finally gonna be over.

And 2 months holiday?

Oh heaven!
I cant wait to spend time with myself,
get in touch with the real me that I have abandoned years ago.
I've got one canvas ready in my bedroom.
I've gathered all my old brushes and paints.
I've cleaned my pallette.
It's about time.

Masa untuk mengekspresikan dirimu, Lyziana.

So what have I gained from this sour journey?

Alot.

I am still waiting every single day for a miracle to happen.
To hear the phone rang and see that number flashing.
Oh how cruel life can be.

Kadang-kadang kepala runsing,
macam nak pecah.
Ikut hati, mati.
Ikut rasa, binasa.
Ikut akal?
Inilah jadinya,
seperti sekeping hati yang dah mati.

Kalau fantasi dah kelihatan terlalu nyata,
realiti dah tak bermakna lagi.
Tapi bila fantasi berubah menjadi mimpi ngeri,
kita mula tergapai-gapai
mencari realiti.
The problem is, surviving in reality won't be that easy anymore.

How I wish hati, rasa dan akal
boleh berfungsi seiringan.
Ia akan memudahkan perjalanan hidup
dan kita akan dapat membuat pilihan yang bijak.

So in conclusion?
Lyziana dah buat pilihan yang bijak,
tapi mungkin yang bijak itu bukan yang terbaik.
Jadi apa yang terbaik?
The answer is.... Redha je la.

PS: To those who dont get what I was talking about, dont bother cracking your head
trying to figure out what it meant.
It was just word vomit,
actually alot of vomit.

2009-01-15T11:38:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I struggled,

alot.
I spent my past 1 week reading my horoscope everyday,

hoping for a miracle.
And today's horoscope says I'll have

an embarrassing moment that'll

make me blush and all I can do about it
is to laugh.
Hahaha.
Very funny.

I hate it when people know my weakness,
coz most of the time they would just use it
against me and take advantage.
And look now,
I wake up every morning (sometimes afternoon)
thinking about the same thing
over and over again.
It's like never ending!

*Big sigh*

But you know what?
I'm happy for now, at least.
Coz I have nails that cost $120.
Shopped like fuck.
Cut my hair.
Went jogging without my sports bra on.

Stick chewing gum on this ah pek's water bottle for fun.

Ate 1 packet of chocolates everyday.

Broke Mama's favourite mug.
Slept in the hall for the past 2 weeks.
And the good thing is,
nobody actually cares!

See, you can only do these when you have a damn
good excuse like...
'I'm handling break ups real badly,
I need some time to move on.'

It's not like I need all that

but I think it's time I pamper myself a bit more.
And start doing whatever I want.

These cramps are killing me!
Now I need to eat chocolates.

Ok bye.

2009-01-01T22:53:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

If you're asking me how was my new year,
it was the worst new year ever.

Not that I didnt expect it to happen.
I did.
Maybe just not that soon.

While I still have the courage right now,
I guess it is better to walk away.

I know who I am and where I stand.

I am in no position to even dream of something
I can never get.
That includes
when it was me wearing the ring.
Mimpi tu hanya mainan tidur kan?

I'm leaving but I dont know
when I'll move on.
I'm sure it'll be long before
this sore goes away.
I know you'll be fine, like always.

Goodbye honey.
If God's willing,
maybe we'll meet again someday.
Maybe.

2008-12-13T23:26:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Impian untuk memiliki

tidak sama dengan

kenyataan kehidupan.

Now I realise how true it is.
So true it's now unreal.

And I find that I am now
starting to contradict myself.

Is this where it all ends?

2008-12-03T11:14:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

There is no perfect word to describe
what I'm feeling right now.

Maybe it's empty...

Yes,
the word is empty.

2008-12-02T00:20:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

After a super long week(since last week),
an off day.

And I'm booked by dearest Alhan.

I tell you,
when I have a kid,
I want him to be as cute as Alhan,
as intelligent as Alhan,
as whiney as Alhan.

I havent been getting much of what
I wanted my entire life.
But maybe

someday when
Armando Asmara/Yesenia Kasih is born,
he/she would fulfill all my needs so perfectly,
till I dont even need a want.

PS: I bling-ed my digicam.
Now its Hot Red.
I'll post a pic of it later,
when I have 2 days off.

2008-11-27T11:20:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I think I am depressed
and suicidal.

I am officially shittier than Amy Winehouse!

PS: I'll take your advice honey.

Thanx for your support.
Yeah, it's true.
What am I gonna do without you,
for now....

2008-11-19T12:26:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Time: 2.45pm
Venue: Human Resource Department
Post Applied: Registered Nurse

I dont know if I can ever make it.
God! This is so stressful.

PS: I hope what I heard last night was not
my imagination.
Coz after a few years, I can know when you are lying,
and when you are not...

2008-11-16T22:45:00.002+08:00

Pisang is Banana,
Nama Saya Lyziana.

Dear Bloggie,

While I am struggling with my medication lists,
I thought about few stuffs.

Stuff No 1:
Pantun Dua Kerat.
The syiok-est thing you can play during boring times.
Hahaha.
I'm a Malay language freak.

Stuff No 2:
Crocs Sale @ Expo really brings out the
kiasu-ness in me.
I have never ever before fight and push and shout
that fiercely my entire life!
And I did all that
demi kasut Crocs yang tercinta!

Stuff No 3:
I almost died due to
surplus inhalation of
bau ketiak orang!
Gosh!
I really wish I was taller so that
I wont be standing under people's smelly armpits
when they raise up their hands.
Dont they know what is deodorant?

Anyway,
I better get back to work.

Toodles poodles!

2008-11-10T22:38:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I seldom contradict myself.
No doubt everytime I need some favours
I bribed beforehand.
I bribed with my words,
my sweet-talking.

But sometimes you just need a little
'Please'
to make your day.

2008-11-09T21:28:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Aaaarrrggghhhh!!!!!

Okay,

I am officially NERVOUS!
Sungguh tak menyenangkan.
Feels like my cockles omelette
is not digesting well in my stomach.
Ewww....

Nanti-nanti gue update ya.
Da sayang!

PS: Hatimu seksi, itu terbukti dari caramu
cemburu padaku.:)

2008-11-06T13:53:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

5A! 5A! 5A!
Yay!
I got my favourite ward for PRCP!
Thank God.

I just wanna get over PRCP,
do well for it,
get good feedbacks,
and enjoy my belated birthday celebration!

Yes, it is gonna be soooo belated.
A secret rendezvous with bestie:)

Oh yah,
have I told you sweet lil' brother bought me
PINK earphones?
It is sooo totally hot.
Especially when it is used together
with my cool iPod Touch.
Hot!

So I'm lazy to blog more.
Going JB later with Cik Hanim.

Toodles Poodles!

PS: I might be fat but I'm definitely not ugly. Who dares to disagree?

2008-11-04T16:48:00.005+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Gosh! Hari Raya is over.
And PRCP is next week!!!!

I am freaking nervous
and it is not helping that I'm having
seriously killing cramps.

Dammit.
My head is bursting!

Anyway,
I had a great time counting the number of
lipglosses/lipcolors that I have.

Lipglosses: 10
Lipsticks: 5
Lip palette: 1
Lipliner: 3
Altogether: 19!!!
I can start my own Lip Color Line already la!
Lyzzie's Smack Those Lips!
Yeah. I like the sound of it:)

So here are some pictures
to describe my past couple of months....

New specs!

crazy kampung ninja

attachment!

hari raya
For those wondering how come there is 5 ppl,
truth is, I have an 'elder' bro.
Only that I seldom take pics with him.

hyddy bdae

like 'twins' already
hahaha

Finally......

MY BANGS! again.

Okay.
I'm very tired.
Lets go sleep.

Toodles Poodles!

2008-10-02T11:37:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!!!!!
Maaf Zahir Dan Batin.

To all Muslims celebrating Syawal,
I, Lyziana Yusof,
would like to ask for your forgiveness for
any wrong doings that I've done
be it by accident or not.

So some updates.

Geron attachment is over,
Ramadhan is over,
and now its Syawal.
($$$$$)

hahaha.

It is supposed to be the happiest time every year

but when you are me,
things are a bit different.
Just whatever.

You know what FM?
Sometimes I just feel like banging
your head on the wall,
hoping that at the same time
I could knock some sense out of you.
How can you be so ignorant?

IGNORANT.

When it comes to the time that I should leave,
and when you least expected it,
I'll leave.
But for now,
I'll stay as long as I can.

Remember,
our fates are not in our hands.
I just need to see how long luck wants to stick around.

PS: You dont have to worry. I am still your best comfort.

2008-09-21T10:59:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Drowned in a fetal position,
in one way or another,
felt like heaven.

A non-existant to my surroundings,
only real to my eye.
Who can I share it to?
Nobody.

It would be much better
if I have been delusional
all this while.
At least I would wake up
to reality someday somehow.

I swear I have no more strength to fight.
Just waiting for time to swallow me.
And if I was fortunate,
it would vomit me out.
Only if I was fortunate...

2008-08-31T23:52:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Attachment starts tomorrow!!!
I dont know if I'm excited or not
but there is this funny feeling
in my tummy.
Hope everything goes well.

Latest update.
I am somebody's PA now.
Hahaha.
Weird but I like the job.

And Ramadhan officially starts tomorrow too.
Sadly, I cant fast
coz Aunty Rosy is around:(
But it is ok.
At least I can still watch movies:P

Alrighty.
I must go sleep and prepare stuffs for tomorrow.

Love ya.

PS: Boss, I'm missing you like crazy.

2008-08-27T18:18:00.003+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Zoo trip yesterday was fun!
Went with Juli, Ruth, Deb and Mae.
Not forgetting my dearest nephew Alhan.
Oh yah, Juli got the free tix for us actually.
Thanks to her mommy for that.

Alhan was super excited he was jumping around.
That silly pumpkin never failed to make me laugh.
Love him alot.

I shall update more soon
coz right now I'm having a

seriously bad cramp
I could die.

And I'm watching a movie recommended to me;
Hard Candy.

Later honeys!

2008-08-21T02:24:00.001+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I'm a bit paranoid
and turning bipolar.

Somebody please heal me!!!!!

2008-08-21T00:29:00.003+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

While I was browsing Youtube
I came across this song I was looking for
since ages!

Usang by Rahim Maarof.
He was so good looking when he was young.
Actually, he is still good looking now.
(I think he uses botox...)

He is like a Malay version of a Dracula.
Hahahaha.

So if you all wanna hear my all time favourite song
and see this Dracula,
simply refresh.
If you dont know what is refresh,
then go find in dictionary.
If you dont have a dictionary,
then go

Dictionary.com.

Better get back to studying.

Toodles Poodles!

2008-08-18T18:20:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Guess what I just did?

I splashed my super yummy teh tarik

ON MY LAPTOP!!!!!

Lyz! Pandai banget ya kamu!

Now lappy is super perangai.

Ok.
Lyz is 1/2 done with HS3033.
Later later I update k.

Toodles poodles.

2008-08-17T12:38:00.005+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I'm trying so hard to concentrate on studying right now,
but seems like tears are gonna run down my cheeks

anytime soon.

Why does this has to be so difficult?

I dont know how much longer I can stand.
Ignorance sounds so easy but not for me.

I cant afford to ignore.

I dont have a choice.

Oh God,
please please please provide me

with patience.
Please ease my mind

at least for now

coz I cant afford losing everything that I have,

losing something that I havent get.

Aaarrggghhh!

This is so shitty.
I hate it.

PS: You took away all my hopes. And I hate you for that.

2008-08-17T01:38:00.006+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Badanku lemah longlai.
Tadi aku puasa beb.
Bila berbuka,
terasa bahagia.

Hahaha.

Seriously, I felt bahagia.
Gembira=Happy

Bahagia=?

Studying has been really bad
I think.
Cant seem to put everything in my head.
Tapi takpe.
Its ok.
Coz at least I feel worried.
Coz when Lyziana is worried,

Lyziana belajar.
Mcm Wow!

So when exams are over,
I'm so gonna treat myself with

something special.
Actually not just something,
but many somethings:)

I think I need a Superman

to sweep me off my feet!

Coz I dont favor mediocre men.

Hahaha.

Alright. Enough of blogging.

I dont really like storytelling sessions you know.

Anybody miss me?

Coz here are some "chocolate cream chip

with love".....

Please dont hate me...:P

new maxi dress.
and stop looking at my cleavage!

I learned how to smile with my teeth showing

dont you think he's cute?
my one and only kerinting...

That's all folks!

Toodles poodles.

PS: I miss you already.

2008-08-13T15:12:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I met up with him yesterday,
in daytime!

I am taking things really slowly right now.
Because I know I am not given much choices,
I have to be extra careful.
And I have to be really patient.
Patient, yes.
Its something I learn when I first know him.
I dont know why.

I am leaving the rest to God's hands

coz He knows best.

Meanwhile waiting for a miracle to happen,
I just need some peace.
Just a little bit of peace.....

Just a bit.....

2008-08-10T00:54:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Just now was the worst conversation ever.

It was merely a few minutes

and there was intense heat going on.

For no good reason.

My mood is spoiled!

And only now you realise I'm childish?

Whatever la.
This always happens when it comes to the time

that I need all the concentration

in the world.
This always happens when I'm having fucking exams.
And there it comes, major distraction.

I'm having an insight,
on another fight.

And I hate it.

PS: Are you like a real man? Coz I think you have PMS.

2008-08-08T18:33:00.004+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Yesterday was the last day of school.
And I hate it!

Because I'll be missing the wonderful people of NR0621.
Believe it or not, I love school.
More than work definitely.
This is a phase that everyone has to go through.
A phase of moving on.
Maybe the context is different between each individuals.

He once asked her.
If he needed to move on,

should he let her go,

or should he still keep her?
She had no answer.

She asked him back,
which one do you prefer?

He had no answer.

If he were to ask her again this time round,
she would say,
"My love, which one makes you sleep at night?

For that is what you should pick..."

Coz she has accepted all posibilities.

2008-07-25T00:26:00.005+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Today,
was a blast!

I passed my clinical skill test!
And in the midst of FYP,
Julz and I managed to give ourselves
a treat!

For dinner, Fish n Co
and super duper nicest brownie
IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!
Serious nye sedap.

The day ended with a
love letter sent to the
wonderful singer there.
Julz is wildly crazy!

Shall update on pictures soonest when
I'm more free.

FYP is tomorrow!
And I cant wait to get done and over with it.

Oh yah! Talking about FYP,
I really enjoyed Wednesday colouring session.
Felt like secondary school all over again.
Plus, GpMates made me laugh my head off.
A really good therapy.

Besides that,
today I realise one thing.
People are really weird.
How judgemental they can be.
How they hold grudges against you
yet at the same time
be there for you.

One thing for sure,
I'm not bothered.
Those who know me,
you know how true that statement is.

God, please equip me with patience.

Toodles Poodles...

PS: Kepulanganmu
seperti sehantaran kebahagiaan
buat santapan jiwaku.....

2008-07-19T22:54:00.004+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

It really sucks when somebody
of a higher authority tries to take control
of you.
Because they are always right.
And they can do anything to destroy you.
And they are most of the time,
unreasonable.

I just simply hate it.

But guess what?
You know how good you are,
and no matter what they say you know your capabilities.
So wipe those tears, sexy babe
coz you know you rock!

:)

Anyway,
Saturday was boring.
Went ngaji and then slacked at Auntie's place.
And I found out something so interesting;
How To Become a Mathemagician!!!!
Whee!

I tell you,
you can give me any math sums and
I can easily solve them,
by MENTAL CALCULATION!
Cool sia!

Lastly,
I'm going to have at least four nights of silentness.
And I so dont like it.

Toodles Poodles...

2008-07-16T00:57:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Everytime when I sit alone,
I start to think why I chose this path.

When things become unbearably painful.
When "I miss You" start to mean nothing.

I'm just a singer, you are the world.
All I can bring you is the language of a lover.-Jason Mraz

2008-07-08T00:16:00.004+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

It is so weird that
it's hard for me to express myself.
And that others can just say and do
whatever they want without thinking
the impact they give.
Intentional or unintentional,
it already hurts.
However, it is not entirely their fault.

Lyz, orang lain bukan macam kau.
Dan kau bukan macam orang lain.
And Lyz is better off with her mouth shut.

So Lyz a.k.a Lazyass Bitch,
just go do your work.
Coz you have been useless nowadays.

Dah terhantuk baru nak terngadah.
Padan muka kau, Lyziana.

2008-06-28T23:24:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Today's entry is about...
HOT STUFFS!

Yes! Hot Stuffs.

Hot Stuff no 1:

My New Pink Tote!!!!

Like soooo HOT right?
I know:)

Hot Stuff no 2:

Me!!!!
Hahaha.

Anak kerbau mati tertambat
Alah sayang mati tertambat...

Best eh lagu tu.

2008-06-16T21:32:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

A week of holiday is over.
One more week left.
And I have yet to do many things.

So anyway, a bit of updates.

I lost 2kg!!!!
Hahaha.
That is like so little but I'm happy
especially when it is unintentional.

Now, I'm kinda arty farty again.
Gonna get my canvas and paints ready soon,

before the mood goes away.

Also, groupmate Nilufer just got engaged yesterday.
OMG! Perkara ni berjangkit tau.
Soon, semua akan ikut.
Soon, kita akan lihat epidemic orang kahwin-kahwin.
Best nyer!!!
Hey, tell me, who is not excited to get married?
Everyone right!:)

Lastly, somebody's car gonne get bling-ed by me!
I'm sexcited:P

A day full of bimbotic moments...

Toodles Poodles!

2008-06-09T00:00:00.003+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Finally,
holidays are here!!!!

God knows how glad I am.
Coz I seriously cant stand even a bit more of school.

Now, I need to plan my holidays well.
Firstly, I start with all the dates I owed my Bunny.
He's my life.
Kungfu Panda k, Alhan?

The rest, I shall think later.
My brain cant really function right now.

Anyway, class bbq on saturday was great I think.
Thanx to Juli who transported us all the way
to Changi Beach Park.
And I cant forget this fun part
when Ruth, Deb, Mae, SK, and me
walked all the way to Changi Beach Hotel
just because we wanted a comfty
toilet seat to pee!

Haha.
I was actually at the verge of peeing halfway already
when I saw an empty bottle at the roadside.

Then, Backstreet Boys's songs accompanied us
back to bbq place.

So, I'm sleepy now.
Good Night!

Oh Yah!
Happy 28th Birthday, Daredevil:)

PS: I've got you what you wanted.

And no.

Its not Mischa Barton.

2008-05-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Hidup macam putaran roda,
kadang di bawah,
kadang di atas.
Kadang-kadang pula kita
macam hanging.
Always in between.

Pernah ada perasaan yang mengelirukan?
I feel it all the time.
Merimaskan.
I traded my youth for something I really wanted,
Dan perasaan megelirukan itulah
dalang gantinya.

Nevertheless,
ia membahagiakan.

Weird?
Yes.

You people must be thinking
"What de hell is Lyz talking abt?"
Well, cuma orang yang weird

macam Lyz je yang faham....:D

Anyway, Lyz nak shopping everyday kalau boleh.
Habiskan duit parents dan jadi spoilt brat.
And jangan fikir sebab Lyz sounded pathetic,
Lyz is feeling down.
Actually, I'm quite happy right now.

Selamat Malam....

PS: "The reactions to accidents are the measurements to your capability."
I understand it now.

2008-05-16T02:32:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Happy Woman!!!!

2008-05-16T02:07:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

15th May 2008, 1250am....

Lyziana Yusof is glad.

15th May 2008, 1112pm....
Lyziana Yusof is a happy woman!

A very happy woman.

PS: Alhamdulillah....

2008-05-11T22:08:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I will always remember and love every 11th in every month,
coz it is has always been sweet no matter what.

But today...
is different.

2008-05-09T01:19:00.003+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I am glad I managed to drag myself
to go out with my friends just now.
It helped me alot.

Coz I think it would be worse if I were to
lock myself in my room and keep thinking of him.

Do you remember the movie "Butterfly Effect"?
Wont it be great if it happens to me;
The chance of repairing this heartbreak.

2008-05-08T00:53:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I survived another day.
But it is so hard.
Just too hard....

2008-05-07T00:43:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I tried to study
but these bloody tears just would'nt
stop running down my cheeks.

I am so tired.

Sometimes I give many slaps on my face,
saying "Lyz, please wake up."
How I wish this is not real.

But again, only tears do the actions.
Because,
I am too tired.

2008-05-05T11:31:00.003+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I have reached my downfall.

I lost him.

Now I dont know how am I going to survive.

2008-05-05T11:26:00.002+08:00

Apa Sebenarnya
Artist: Fauziah Latiff

Andai sampainya waktu aku harus tinggalkan mu
Akan aku berlalu bila tiba saat itu
Tak guna kau merayu dan tak perlu menahanku
Kerana yang berlalu kehendakmu

Hanya tuhan yang lebih tahu
Susah senang hidup dengan mu
Sumpah janji semakin layu
Hingga kini jatuh satu persatu
Engkau membiarkan ku

Air mata bertamu tidak kenal erti jemu
Menemani hatiku tidak mengenal ruang waktu
Mengapa dari dulu tak kau kata kan padaku
Kehadiranku ini menyusahkan

Yang terhalang kejujuranku
Dan yang terbilang kesilapanku
Memang payah dimengertikan
kerana tertutup pintu hati mu
Terima penjelasan

Biar apa jua tafsiran
Yang ingin kau nyatakan
Aku rela terima semua....

2008-05-04T01:31:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Saturday has always been a super slack day for me.
Sat infront of the tv watching Hindi movies.
Guess what made my day better?
Rootbeer Float!!!!:D
Whoots!

And tomorrow would be a whole day of shopping.
If everything goes well and if I'm not lazy to go out.
Hehe.
I've set aside some cash for myself,
and $400 just for MUA.
See, my passion for makeup:P
I LOVE MUA...
(bimbo voice)

By the way,
I was watching this Hindi movie about some boxing competition thing
and I realise how much I miss watching
Jean-Claude Van Damme's action movies.
Always got kickboxing one.
If not it's muay thai.
Very shiok watching them.

Then suddenly something caught my eyes.....
My 123kg punching bag!

Yes ar!
I'm gonna start my boxing crap again.

So I'm super sleepy now.
Toodles poodles....

PS: It's time for sayang-sayang.

2008-05-01T01:11:00.003+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Since today I so feeling the Melayu,

I want to type mix-mix Melayu la...
So topic hari ini...

Tak ada topic.

Only that MUA Team had our orientation on Wednesday.
At first there were too many ppl for us to handle.
Then almost half got lazy and went back.

So after everything dah over,
me, Haini, Widuri and Lisa

went to our clubroom to play

TABBOOO!!!!
I didn't realise that my English is actually quite good!

Then, entah macam mana terkeluar sentence "I selalu click ngan u"

dari mulut Widuri.

Rasa-rasa macam hangat sangat sebab dah terkena

pada batang hidung sendiri.

Tapi Lyz dah macam sick and tired gitu.
Penat fikirkan pasal orang lain.
But macam cant help it,
I think I will still continue trying to save my friends' asses

even if it means going to jail.
Afterall, its not like what I do would give any impact to others.

Just that it takes any guilt away from me
coz at least I did what I needed to do.
The rest is none of my business.

So, Bloggie...

Yang sudah tu sudah.
Only now I will be spending most of my time at the hospital

taking care of my dear Kak Darling.
Macam fun gitu suap dia makan. Hahaha.
Since she is super duper funny,
accompanying her would be a blast,

I think:D

PS: I need more ice-cream.

2008-04-27T23:11:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Dearest Kak Darling had just met with an accident this morning.
And the worst thing is that she broke her femur
to THREE parts!!!!!!

Pity her.
Seven hours in OT was seriously nervewrecking.
Thank God she is stable.
And just now was the first time
I saw my almost all of my uncles
got emotional.

It was so unexpected of my very
macho men.

Nevertheless, I'm just simply glad.

Get well soon, Kak Darling.
I know you are a strong girl.
We all love you.

PS: Reminded me of the time I got into a bike accident. It hurts you know.

2008-04-24T23:19:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I see her everyday

I talk to her everytime
We talked about how others drifted apart
and we didnt.
But why do I still feel weird?
Why are things still weird?

We are near but
only God knows how much I miss her,
My Best Friend....

2008-03-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Many at times when
you feel that you almost own something,
then the next minute
it just gets away from you.
Further and further apart...

And many at times
you want to say stop,
but you will just end up
still sitting there
and be faithful.

Many at times
when love overcomes everything
that you force yourself
to sulk up all the pain.

And many at times
you get heartbroken
and to realise again,
that you are not taken into consideration
in the 'future picture'.

I don't know if I have much time left.
But the battle is not over yet.

I am not brave enough to walk away.
I am staying.
Coz I believe He has plans for me,
and my wait is all worthwhile.

There is no such thing as MAYBE in love,
only YES or NO.

My heart is certain.
I am not giving up.
Anything can happen.
Anything can happen.

PS: Boys suck! Lets throw rocks at them!!!!!

2008-02-29T22:22:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Attachment is great so far.
Maybe a bit boring coz there are not much
patients in the paying class ward.
But there are some cute babies
and toddlers for us to play around with.

They are so cute
and they look like cartoons!
Hahaha.
And we found a second Chubbs:)

So confirm plus chop
we will be having chalet this March holidays.
And when I say we
I meant our Subgroup 4.
Coolness!

Now I'm like a bit lazy to update alot.
So if later I feel like blogging
I'll update more.
For now,
I wanna catch up on an old friend,
Mr Bed.
I have an appointment for some beauty sleep.

Toodles Poodles...

teddy love...

2008-02-21T02:54:00.003+08:00

To All Women....

Perempuan datang atas nama cinta
Bunda pergi karena cinta
Digenangi air racun jingga adalah wajahmu
Seperti bulan lelap tidur dihatimu
Yang berdinding kelam dan kedinginan
Ada apa dengannya
Meninggalkan hati untuk dicaci
Baru sekali ini aku melihat karya syurga dalam mata seorang hawa
Ada apa dengan cinta
Tapi aku pasti akan kembali
Dalam satu purnama
Untuk mempertanyakan kembali cintanya
Bukan untuknya
Bukan untuk siapa
Tapi untukku
Karena aku ingin kamu
Itu saja....

FYI, the poem was done by a man who trully appreciates women.
Trust me, he is my best friend
and almost all his poems that I have read
were about how wonderful women can be.
Hahaha, weirdly wonderful man.

PS: Thanx Rizuan:D

2008-02-21T02:49:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Somebody please get me a divorced barbie.
It is 'cheap',
and it comes with

Ken’s Car,

Ken’s House,

Ken’s Boat,

Ken’s furniture,

Ken’s jewelry,

Ken’s money,

Ken’s computer, and

Ken’s best friend .....
(ouhhhh... I loike...:D)

2008-02-19T02:22:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I am a few hours away from
bio paper
and I'm happily chatting in msn.
I'm officially screwed upside down,
and prepared for supp paper.

And this stupid flu
is seriously killing me!!!
I have lots of tissues stuffed
in my nostrils!

AAARRRGGGHHH!
K lah.
Bye.

2008-02-15T01:29:00.002+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

So Valentine's was Valentine's.
Nothing special,
besides the fact that I spent time with
MrBooksAndNotes.
Studying sucks big time.
It gives me wrinkles.
And I'm left with approximately
15hours to my first paper,
2035 med-surg.

You said,
"Please honey, dont stop me. Why are u stopping me?"
Of course not. You silly pumpkin:)
Only that it means for that couple of weeks
there wont be anyone calling me up late night
and accompany me talk crap
until I feel sleepy.
(actually I'm the one making others feel sleepy haha)
Whatever it is,
you still have to go.

When you said you miss me(be it lie or truth),
I miss you 10 times more....

Toodles poodles....

PS: Nari takde PS uh.. buhbye.

2008-02-12T12:42:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Yesterday,
was our 2 years.

Dont know if it can be called as an anniversary or what
but lets just take it as whatever we want it to be.

Glad you sounded really happy wishing me back.

We have changed.
There is not much that I can ask for.
But to know that I am your best comfort,
is good enough.

I am special coz I'm the youngest:)

PS: Happy 22nd Birthday to dearest older bro, Rohaizad. Miss him alot.

2008-02-10T16:52:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

No words,
pictures only.
:)

A trip to Terminal 3 with dearest family.....

nephew, Alhan

me and qani'ah

dayana and I

Alhan, u look at de wrong place la...

Unfortunately, I was the only one crazy enough to jump around.....

stepsisters

Now, updates on the Ashiblie Brothers' Birthday Bash....

Iddin Ashiblie, their mom kak en, Alhan Ashiblie

we call him, kerinting.

isnt he cute?

dancing dancing....

look! I got for him his favourite fire engine truck.

and he likes almost everything.....

Aunty Lyz really looked like auntie.. hahha

Alrighty! Thats all folk!
Exams starts on friday.
Time to mug.

Toodles poodles everyone:)

PS: I'm going to watch movie only at Marina Square and only
when Ibul is working so that I can get free entry.
I am cheapskate. I know.

2008-02-08T02:07:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Today's post is all about last Saturday,
Mini Birthday Meet Up with
darling Wati.
After almost half a year of not seeing her.

She is one true best friend of mine
who never forgets to call,
never get upset with me,
always accept my flaws,
and is always there when I'm in need.

So we watched Sweeney Todd together
at tampines GV.
Johny Depp is hot!
We ate ice-cream, talk crap
and oogling over hot men.
Hahaha. Typical us.

Then we decided to go to T3
and go ga-ga over ang mohs.

No words can describe that day.
It was the most fun.
And also we bumped to a few of secondary school mates
who reacted weirdly towards us.
But what the heck!

So here are the wonderful pictures!!!!!!

My prezzie from Wati ( its a strawberry shortcake bank for me to save up-
she knows my needs)

ice-cream!!!

Darling Wati

we are good at taking weird pictures...

Belated birthday cake

last piece...

i looked a bit psychotic...

nonsense...

6 years and still counting....
Love you, Darling Wati:)

PS: Oh God please help me. Please make him fall in love with me once again.

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2008-01-29T10:00:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I just cant wait to get
over and done with this attachment
and start mugging for exams.

Migraine is killing
and I dont feel like going to work.

So many stuffs to handle,
plus DC performance is coming up,
and I feel like killing my girls.

Makeup is not a difficult thing to do.
And if you all have exams,
so do I.
What? Do you expect me to skip my attachments
and come down to take over your place?
Fuck you all lazybums!

I'm seriously depending on the few who are always there
and doing their work properly.
And I know that these people would do their best
for DC show this friday.

Anyway, I'm so late for work already.
Have yet to go bathe.

Toodle poodles!

PS: Robek Hatiku.....

2008-01-22T00:02:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

Attachment just started like just now
and it was a bad start for me.
Ward CI kinda scary and strict
and my shoes came off halfway through my shift!
Shit la.
Luckily downstairs they got sell Crocs.
If not I think I would have to walk
barefoot for the rest of the day.

There goes my 40bux that I had saved so far for Fendi shades.
Now I have to start all over again....
And the Crocs gave me blisters la.
Like idiot!

So updates about the weekend.
Saturday was ok.
Fights? Never ending in Neverland.
But anyway, its over.
So Papa got all of us a Geranium Titanium Bracelet.
Except for Mama who got a Geranium Necklace instead.
For those who are wondering
why the hell this stupid bracelet?
Let me tell you that it is good for your health.
Confirm plus chop
and signed, sealed, delivered kinda assurance:P

I can say that coz I wore them before
(but mine was magnet platinum but now geranium is better coz can last longer)
and it is good for your blood circulation.
Trust me.
I was selling these stuffs you know.
So I can differentiate between fake ones and quality ones.
And whoever wants to buy,
go buy from Owell.

And lucky us,
we got FOUR pendants as free gifts!
Each cost ard 200bux.
Coolness!

So I'm very tired now.
But I love last week coz he called or text me
every single day!
Everyday without fail!
*smile from ear to ear*
Its so unusual coz he didnt even skip a day.
But I like it:):):):)

Anyway,
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY SAYANGKU WATI!!!!
Me doa you get whatever you want k.
Dan saya sayang banget sama kamu dong.
Selama lama dan lamanya...:P

Next.....
Pictures.

with darling bro....

and I lost some weight....

Toodles Poodles!

PS: Just as I was about to click "publish post", he called.
*loves*
I know God would answer my prayers someday.
And I find it kinda Kinky that he only calls me after midnight:P

2008-01-18T00:20:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

You know I love you

and that is why you took the advantage
to control me.
You know I always say yes to you.
But you failed
to recognize my happiness.

I dont find a need to say anything anymore.
It wont make any difference.
We have had numerous conversations.

You know I'll even trade my soul
for yours.
I guess you just refuse to understand.

I love you, Mama.

2008-01-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

HS 2118 is tomorrow
and I havent finish studying!!!
So sick la.

Toodles Poodles!

PS: Yes I have to admit that missing someone is the worst feeling
in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!

2008-01-15T00:42:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I smelled like him today
and I feel so comfortable with myself.

So camwhoring with Shah was the best!
It is our forte.
hahaha.
We were so crazy la.

So fat la! But I still love it:P

Well, thats all for now I guess.
Having 2119 presentation tomorrow.
And kinda sleepy right now too.

Toodles poodles!

PS: Psssttt..... It was random and I'm going crazy.

2008-01-14T01:38:00.000+08:00

The Shirelles-
Will You Still Love Me Tomorrow

Tonight you're mine completely
You give you love so sweetly
Tonight the light of love is in your eyes
But will you love me tomorrow?

Is this a lasting treasure
Or just a moment's pleasure?
Can I believe the magic of your sighs?
Will you still love me tomorrow?

Tonight with words unspoken
You say that I'm the only one
But will my heart be broken
When the night meets the morning sun?

I'd like to know that your love
Is love I can be sure of
So tell me now, and I won't ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow?

So tell me now, and I won't ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow?
Will you still love me tomorrow?
Will you still love me tomorrow?

2008-01-13T23:43:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

It is really funny when one day you
feel really shitty about yourself,
and the next day you feel like you
are at the top of the world
and can overcome anything.

And when that happens,
you are no more worried.
Yes Lyz.
You dont have to worry.
*smile to myself*

So sunday was so typical.
Followed Mama and Papa to
some wedding reception.
A budget wedding I shall say.

Like usual,
I put on my pro makeup
and in the end I look like a doll.
You can puke but seriously
I am not joking.

and you get......Perempuan Melayu Terakhir.

Lastly,
I know I am fat,
but I am DEFINITELY not ugly.
And I trust the people who told me that.

I'm not trying to be a bitch
who is so full of herself here.
Blame it on Auntie Rosie:(
When she's gone,
I'll be back to my humble self once again.
:)

PS: I must be crazy to wait for those night calls every single day.
But when I answered it like few minutes ago,
I realise I'm not.
Because it always make my day
a whole lot better.

2008-01-13T01:11:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

For somebody who is not so demanding like me,
my date on Saturday was almost perfect.
It is not the typical date when you get
to spend half of the day together
or get roses as gifts,
yet the 3 hours with him
was so precious.

We went to watch Body 19.
And I got meaningful gifts.
A black water bottle which I
plan to decorate with Swarovski crystals,
Bodyshop Oceanus Spray- something he uses
every now and then coz he likes the smell (so right now
I smell like him),
and lastly
a gel tube with my name in it and a heart beside it (now
hanging by my handphone).

Realize the big similarity?
I'm just like him.
I love to buy lots of small gifts and compile them
in one box or bag,
then give it as present.

I really appreciate spending time with him
since I know I dont get to see him often.

Life is complicated
and shit happens.
But I have always believe that
there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.

And the pot of gold
is for me.

-snapped by him-

Thats all for now.
And I'm losing my appetite,
so now I'm enduring my serious
gastric pain,
plus a visit from Auntie Rosie
and her group of cramps army.
PMS sux.

And I regretted not taking the cheesecake:(

PS: You are the only one who can make my heart beats faster and slower at the same time- Hot Chicks.

2008-01-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

A week is gone.
And I'm feeling so great about it.

So BCLS was great
except that I have to repeat my reassessment
for Adult Choking.
But who cares anyway?

I PASSED MY ONE-MAN CPR!!!!!
Whee!!!!
I swear I was too happy
I was jiggling when walking.
Hahaha.
Thank God Julz didnt notice that.
Even if she did,
probably she must have thought that
its the normal jiggles I have whenever I walk:)
I know, she knows,
you dont know....

Its so boring that Wati darling
couldnt sleepover my place tonight.
Her sis was in labour.
There goes our birthday night out.
Oh well,
there's always next week.
And I have to make sure that she will make it.
If not I will sulk and cry
and stop talking to her
and throw away her prezzie inside jamban.!:P
Wati, I know you love me:)

Tomorrow is gonna be hectic but fun.
Going school at 10am to get the dancers done for their performance
by 1230pm.
Then bring Ain darling walk2 around
my "lovely" school.

So yeah,
being the President of MUA,
people have been asking for tips from me.
But you see,
I'm amateur.
However, there's no harm in telling a few tricks I know,
right?

Tip for today: Many girls like red lipstick (me! me! me!) but they are afraid to use it.
Mainly because red lipstick sometimes can make you look like you are
bleeding or just finished making out.
So what you can do to prevent that is to powder you lips together everytime you
powder your face. When u put on the lipstick, it would sink in and wont
smudge at the corners of your mouth. And somehow I think matte looks better than glossy.

Oh yah!
I have a date!:)

Ta Daaa!
Hahhaha.
My first DAYTIME date with him.
This is gonna prove that
he is no Vampire.....

2008-01-10T01:14:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I know I may sound stupid
and bimbotic
and whatever you wanna say,
but I cant get enough of looking at myself nowadays.
Hahaha.

Sorry for this boring post.

2008-01-09T00:13:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LYZIANA.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...

Somehow, its unexpectedly disappointing.

2008-01-08T01:37:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I cant wait.
I simply just cant wait for my birthday.
hahaha.

So Mike is here in Singapore.
But I'm not keen to meet him.
I'm cold-hearted nowadays.
So you can kneel down and beg,
I'm telling you its not gonna happen.
Sorry.

BCLS Theory test is on Wednesday.
So it completely ruined my supposed-to-be-the-happiest-day-of-my-life.
But its ok coz I'm hoping a big return when the results are out:)

Meeting up with my dear Wati on Friday,
gonna have like a mini celebration just between the both of us
like we always do every single year.
And I'm happy that we are still pretty much sisters
even when we dont get to see each other often.

But before that,
I owe Juli her Brazilian.
And Gelare.

Thats all folks!

PS: Men are selfish bastards. Dont you think so?

2008-01-07T01:30:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

WeeKends suck like hell
and I'm so looking forward for school
on Monday.
Yes! Weird indeed.
You know, when you spend too much time at home,
you will start to feel that you are better off at school.
Well, that is exactly what I feel.
(Even though I dont really think you guys agreed with what I just said)

So on Sunday 6/1/08 was like the
birthday of my childhood friend Nick Koh.
That means I'm left with 3 more days
to enjoy my last year as a child.
Soon, I will not be in the children category anymore....

It is so depressing.
So depressing knowing that you are like one year older
and one year closer to being old.
Imagine all those wrinkles.....
Gosh! I should start taking collagen supplements
A.S.A.P.!!!!!

I hope this year papa wont forget to wish a happy birthday to me
coz he kinda skip that part last year.
Like totally skip my birthday la!

And I just hope that my loved ones would remember too.
Especially that someone important,
who said he's gonna meet me up this weekend
but like always,
he didnt.
And like always, I can refrain myself from blowing up.

So I'm currently really saving up for my Fendi sunglasses.
It is super hot la.
Since mama betrayed and bought me a dress instead,
I dont have any other choice but to use my own money:(

But its ok.
I can save really well...

Oh yah! Have I ever told you that I'm glad I have a small head?
Small head not small brain ok.
Coz I was thinking if I were to have a head bigger than the average size,
or let me rephrase that.
A head too big for my body,
I would look like JOHNY BRAVO.
Yes, you read that. JOHNY BRAVO!
(that cartoon, you know him right?)
Its gonna be super funny la.
hahaha.

I'm not trying to insult anybody with big heads
coz I myself know my flaws.
But one way of accepting the fact is to actually make fun
of your lacking,
true?

Sunday was tiring.
And my eyes have already surrendered a few minutes ago.
So I guess its bedtime.

Nice blogging again.

PS: Somehow, like always, I'm prepared for the worse.

2008-01-02T01:07:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,
school is starting in 9 hours time,
and I'm so not prepared for it.
Thank God I have an appointment that would
cheer up my day:)

Since the day I bought
that super nice notebook,
I'm already thinking of writing in
my diary again.
So yeah,
I think I'm going to start
now.

I'm very lazy to blog anything right now.
Just wanna let the people in my life
know that I'm still alive.
Not yet dead.
Even though some people wish I was.

Addicted to the song Tainted Love.
It was from Soft Cell but I
love the Pussycat Dolls version more.
Lyrics are on the opening page.
As you all know,
I dont even know how to upload my pics here.
What more a song.
So when I can get Juli to do it for me
you all can start enjoying Tainted Love as much as I do:)

Thats all folks!

PS: What is exactly PS? Somebody plz tell me....

2007-11-30T23:38:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I am so proud to say that,

as an 18 year old female,
I'm a lady.

And I'm proud to say that,
at this young age,
I can take care of my pride.
At least I dont confront people for minor reasons.
Only kids do that.
My heart is trying to influence me alot,
asking me to be nasty,
having thoughts that if I were to see that
gigi kebabom girl again,
I'll just say "NEXT".
I need new faces.

So if you guys were thinking how can I be so calm?
Well, lets just say that,

that is how adults handle things:)

So school was great.
Especially eating cup noodles at YCK interchange
with Shah, Nyl, Afiqah n Ruth.
I was so sure people were staring at us.
I mean who would sit with ants and eat right?
But you wanna know why we did that?
Because no matter how much we want,
we just simple cant deny
each other's existence:)

Anyway, here something in Malay;
Ada mata ,pandang.
Ada telinga, dengar.
Ada mulut, cakap.
Sebab mulutku adalah hak milikku.

NOTE: This non-existing lady is officially the new President of Makeup Artiste Team.

2007-11-27T00:34:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I can't stop myself

from letting out a giggle

when stupid things

happen around me.

I don't bother to say anything,

waste of my saliva.

Me and my big mouth,

so what?

Name me one person who doesn't have one.

Just one person and I'll wave the white flag.

And I(the one with no life),

can confirm you none exists.

I totally understand people's flaws,

my mistake was expecting people to understand mine.

Which lead to many other complications.

I am grateful to know that no matter how bad my situation is

I have him to always advice me,

even though sometimes his advice is crap,

to always scold me when I do something wrong,

to always console me when I'm down,

to always be there for me,

even though i seldom see him,

And warn me about the harsh reality of school life

long time ago,

so that I won't fall down on my knees,

and therefore,

I'm less hurt.

Thank you, honey.

For the rest,

3 words,

HA HA HA.

I do have a life, idiot.
Only that my life doesn't revolves around you.

PS: My whole life I only have 2 true best friends, Ain(11yrs and still counting), and Wati. You guys know I always love you.

2007-10-29T15:42:00.000+08:00

Janji Melayu

2007-07-26T11:34:00.000+08:00

Hello Bloggie,

It has been damn long since I've blogged.
My mind is empty right now.
No idea of what to talk about even though so many things happened.

Ok lah,
Attachment was great.
Relaxing.
Now I love 5A.
hahaha.

So on Friday of the 2nd week,
Debbie, Shah and I went to have a celebration.
A durian feast at Geylang!
The durians taste damn nice I tell you.
We ate there like kids who havent eaten for months!
Hahaha.
And Deb was so noisy. She kept on saying, "Wah! Damn nice man!"
Hahaha. So funny.

Yeah, hope that we can keep this durian tradition alive.
Forever....:)

And I managed to beg my friend to design a new grafiti for my bedroom wall.
I'm seriously sick and bored of the one I have now.
Not because its not pretty or what,
its damn nice la.
Only that I want something new.
Come on, definitely you wont want to have the same grafiti on your bedroom wall for many years, right?
So yeah. I've been checking my mail everyday coz he's going to post it to me.
I simply love destroying my wall:P
(I think I've talked about this before, haha)

Anyway, I'm planning to get my license ASAP.
I'm so afraid that the government would start the new law this year.
Hope not.

So yeah...
My subgroup are really rushing doing our ICAs that have to be presented next week.
I really love one of the topics: Syphilis & Gonorrhea
After seeing pictures of it makes me wanna puke.
I just dont get it why people love unprotected sex.
Cant you see it people?
Unprotected/Premarital sex causes your pussy/dick to have sores that look like big pimples!
Ugly and painful.
And stinks!
For goodness sake. Stop!

And not just that. Personal hygiene is so important.
Girls, wipe from front to back, ok.
Its to prevent UTI.
Also there's a high chance of having "crabs" that would cling to your pubic hair.
So ladies, vote for the Brazilian.

Enough of all that.
I cant wait for the renovation at my house to start and end.

Coz I have been sleeping at the couch everyday since my room is now a temporary store. Damn messy you know.
And I miss Alhan!
He now has a friendster account.
So cute. I can look at his pictures everyday.
Hahaha.

Ok lah.
I think I better stop here.
Thanx for reading my boring blog that has no pictures in it.
Hahaha.
Its not that I dont want to put but its because I DONT KNOW how to post some pictures.
I know I'm dumb but
whatever dear.

Later!

PS:Waiting for the right time.

2007-06-29T14:13:00.000+08:00

Screw me upside down!
I'm dead.

2007-06-29T11:24:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,

I'm supposed to go study for bio prac later

but instead

I'm blogging.
Damn me.

Besides that,
my stomach is growling like hell.
And its like many hours more till I get to eat.

Oh yah,
haven't I told you that I passed my research method?
I got C.
A C that is so meaningful to me,
yet nothing to others.
But whatever.
Effort is still effort.

Make-up trial on wed went ok,
I think.
Just hope the person would hire me for the real day too.
:)

And I need cash!
Like desperately.
God, please give me one lump sum of money,
coz I'm sure You know that I really,
really need it.

That's all folks.
Tata.

PS: I just love it when bro is hospitalized. That is the only time when he would shout less and be a good kid. hahaha.
Get well soon, Adik.
I love you.

2007-06-25T15:10:00.000+08:00

Dear Bloggie,
It has been ages since I've updated
and blogging is so not my forte.

Holidays are over and here I am,
having a teeny weeny of free time to blog.

Class chalet was fun!
Even though the people who actually attended can be counted by fingers.
Nothing much happened.
Rotting at home is not bad after all.
And Daredevil went to Jakarta to party for 3 days.
Purposely make me jealous.
But whatever...
One day I shall do the same thing too okay.

You just wait and see, honey.
And yah, thank God you love the present I bought for you,
if not..... you are so dead.

And I hope you love my hair too.
Which you always do.

I desperately need to lose weight la.
Everytime I meet up with my old friends
the first thing they would say is
"Lyz, you've gain so much weight, very fat"
I know, I know...
I'm trying my best ok
but you see,
its NOT easy especially when you gained 20kg in merely 6 months.
I swear this is the worst stage of my life.

Anyway, attachment is very near.
Infact, its next week!

Nothing can describe all the excitement I feel.
Its like Woohoo!!! and Yayness!!!

Seriously, I dont know what else I should blog.
I have this mixed up feeling every now and then.
Its kinda torturing.
And frustrating.
I think I'm becoming more stupid.

Haha... Extra.

Okay lah I think before I start to type stupid stuffs,
I might as well stop here.
I'll blog soon....
I promise.

PS: Somehow, whatever you said is just not enough to assure me that I'm not forgotten. I wonder why am I still feeling like I'm your Mistress.

I miss you,
and your car, of course.

2007-06-08T11:41:00.000+08:00

Hello bloggie,

Today is like the last day of school and I'm very excited.
2 weeks of break might sound a bit short but to me,
its sufficient.
Moreover, your schedule is really weird when you are in nursing.

Some recap of what happened for this wk.
On 7th was his birthday. OMG! He's like already 27 la. Time flies really fast.
And I bought him something.
something so not expensive at all.
After all, he has money to get himself expensive stuffs.
so yeah..

I think I'm just gonna rot at home this holiday.
Unlike my Best Friend Forever
who is flying to Phuket tonite.
With a new best fren of hers.

Talking about best friends,
I really find it ridiculous to have a new best friend in merely months.
But it happened and I wonder if I'm supposed to regret.
I know I'm a drama queen
but pretending is not my forte.
Pretending infront of you, as if I'm dumb and knew nothing
was hard.
The fact that I know everything that you did,
leaves me with an empty feeling.
And plz bestie,
You are a BAD actress.
Keeping quiet does not mean I believed whatever lame story you told me.
And you call me your best fren?
Sometimes I really doubt your sincerity when you say that.

Many times that you claimed you couldnt help me when you can,
I NEVER blamed you for anything.
Even when you almost made me get debarred from exams.
It was ok.
I'm a forgiver.
And I know I made mistakes too.

That day
You sounded unsatisfied.
I know you blamed me for causing "trouble".
Only that I would prefer if you could say if straight forwardly
to me.
And not to somebody else whom you didnt even like.

And thanx to you.
We missed all outings we planned together.
Dont say sorry if you dont mean it.
After all, shit happens everytime we are going out rite?

Now I AM blaming you.
For the first time since we be friends.

But whatever...
I still love you and you are still my best friend.
So I'll pray that you return safely to Singapore.

PS: Honey, the next time I lie down on the passenger seat of a sport car, and got reminded of you, I'll think a 100 TIMES whether I should buy you that car or not!:)
After all, you said you are the one who is supposed to buy me stuffs...)Muah!

2007-05-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

Hello Bloggie,
I'm updating my blog using schools's computer.
Sucks big time but whatever.

Sometimes school can be really boring.
So I really can't wait for de hols.
Not mentioning that I'll have an outing to Escape this Vesak Day with dearest MUA girls.
Plus plus chalet with NR0621.
Yayness!

Oh Yah! I'm bringing Alhan go watch Shrek3 this Friday.
That adorable pumpkin is so cute.
Now that I have bangs that look like his,
we are more bonded now.
Hope he likes it.
You know this nephew of mine is really fussy about how I look.
And weird.

He said specs are nicer than contacts.
He likes my messy and frizzy curly hair.
He hates my big earrings.
He loves putting lipgloss on my lips for me.
And sometimes he calls me "girlfren".
He's so cute la. 3years old only.
My hearthrob.....

Ok done with that.

Wednesday is like my clinical prac and theory test.
And I'm so not prepared.
The skills are like so damn difficult can.
It makes you go crazy trying to memorize everything!

What else should I tell you huh?
Hmmm....
I got new make-up.
2 new dresses.
A new red colour handphone.
And most importantly......*drum rolls*
NEW BANGS!!!!!!
It looks cute I tell you.
Woohoo!:P

Ok then.
Thats all for now.
Need to head to lecture.
Toodles!
MUAH!

PS: I'm easy. I'll take Whatever you give me....:)

PSPS: Get well soon, honey. Your white chocolate is still in my fridge.

2007-05-04T17:59:00.000+08:00

I only have like 3 mins to blog. So here it is.
I miss my blog!!!!

Shall update it soon k.
I think I need to go now.
See you soon.

PS:Constipated people are full of shit. And dont forget to watch Jangan Pandang Belakang. Tak kisah apa orang nak cakap as long as I know I'll be afraid.

2007-02-13T14:20:00.000+08:00

Babe, i need to tell you this.
I'm so tired of waiting for you most of the time.
I admit i'm guilty of being late but it has always been within half an hour.
And i seriously dont mind if i have to wait that much time for you.
Infact 1 hour is still totally ok.
But this is too much.

Tiap-tiap hari aku kena tunggu kau.
2 hours IS a big deal babe.
Now, i really think you dont appreciate me like what you always said.
You are being inconsiderate.
Sekarang ni pon while i'm typing this aku masih tengah tunggu kau at e-learning lab.
And you know i need to go back early.

Its difficult to tell you face to face coz i'll start to tear up coz you have changed a lot.

So if u read this, i hope you'll buck up.
Tak kan kau nak orang tegurkan kau setiap kali kau buat salah.

I love you a lot k. You are my best friend.

Hating you is the last thing in my mind. I hope you'll understand.

2007-02-13T14:03:00.000+08:00

Hello Bloggie!
I seriously think i'm not gonna do well for my exams despite all that studying.
Its just my intuition. You know, the woman's intuition thingy.
But sometimes it knocks off sucks la.
Just hope for the best.

I'm now at school, trying to study a little while waiting for Julz to come.
She's so late.
I'm gonna stranggle her neck with my bear hands.
Eh wait!
I have really small hands. I will be needing help for that.
Lets just say, i forgive her?
Now, she will have to buy me Venezia ice-cream before i change my mind.
*evil smile*

Yesterday was Abang's birthday. He turned 21. Yayness! I'm so happy lah!
You people must be wondering why the hell am i happy that he turned 21.
Dont you guys see it?
Take a good look.
21=PROGRESS PACKAGE
Muahahaha!
I was just kidding, Bro.:)

2007-02-10T12:27:00.000+08:00

Hello Bloggie!

I think i should not blog often at home coz of my dying laptop. It took me like half an hour to log in to my account. Seriously, a big waste of time. Not just that, the template is always jumbled up. Funny.

Anyway, i so need a some kind of therapy right now. Be it film therapy(something i learned from Arts class), or retail therapy(definitely this is the best).

Oh yah! Yesterday, when i was at tampines interchange waiting for my mom, i saw something very disturbing. There was this cute little boy(i think he was around 4 maybe) with his dad. Well, i think it was his dad. Cannot confirm coz he looked quite young. The kid was crying really loudly. Not that i dont like it, i love kids but the dad was super duper annoying. The poor boy hurt his hand or something so he wanted his dad to carry him up. That young dad just scolded him in malay "Kau boleh diam tak! Aku sepak kan baru kau tahu! Sial betul!" Wah! This man is like seriously ah beng lah. The worst part was, he slapped that poor cute little boy hard on his cheeks! For God's sake man, he's just a kid. Have you lost your mind?! Now the boy cried even louder. I couldn't take it seeing the man scolded vulgarities to his son in public, slapping and pushing him as if he was a useless doll. Eh hello? If u don't want your son then go send him to orphanage lah! Easy rite? At least people like me can adopt them. Then, you can go have fun at clubs with prostitutes, and go make babies with every single one of them, and then send the babies to orphanage again?! Fark!

I seriously hate this kind of people. Heartless!
Now i'm like so pissed. Cool down lyz.

OK, forget about that. My plans for the weekend: study, study and study.
Its gonne be worth all the hardwork.
And Julz darling, thanx for the Push Pop. Love it!
Aida, aku rindu kau lah!

To all dear darlings of mine who have gotten their O's results, congratulations!
To all my sexy babes, good luck for the upcoming exams.
To sweetheart Alhan, Aunty Lyz miss you dear! I'll bring you go jalan soon k sayang.:)
To papa, allowance i bila nak masok?
To mama, thank you sebab you nak jahit baju i.:)
To adik, eeee hopeless. Gay. Hahaha!

Muah!

PS:GBH-Grevious Bodily Harm. I find it kinda useful. I see it almost everyday. Thanx honey for teaching me that. Good teacher....*cheeky smile*