I can be as sweet as those candycanes you always get for Christmas.
But i can be as bitter as a poison.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Dear Bloggie,
Four more days till I finish my last hurdle. It feels just like yesterday... Anyway, I'm glad it's finally gonna be over.
And 2 months holiday?
Oh heaven! I cant wait to spend time with myself, get in touch with the real me that I have abandoned years ago. I've got one canvas ready in my bedroom. I've gathered all my old brushes and paints. I've cleaned my pallette. It's about time.
Masa untuk mengekspresikan dirimu, Lyziana.
So what have I gained from this sour journey?
Alot.
I am still waiting every single day for a miracle to happen. To hear the phone rang and see that number flashing. Oh how cruel life can be.
Kadang-kadang kepala runsing, macam nak pecah. Ikut hati, mati. Ikut rasa, binasa. Ikut akal? Inilah jadinya, seperti sekeping hati yang dah mati.
Kalau fantasi dah kelihatan terlalu nyata, realiti dah tak bermakna lagi. Tapi bila fantasi berubah menjadi mimpi ngeri, kita mula tergapai-gapai mencari realiti. The problem is, surviving in reality won't be that easy anymore.
How I wish hati, rasa dan akal boleh berfungsi seiringan. Ia akan memudahkan perjalanan hidup dan kita akan dapat membuat pilihan yang bijak.
So in conclusion? Lyziana dah buat pilihan yang bijak, tapi mungkin yang bijak itu bukan yang terbaik. Jadi apa yang terbaik? The answer is.... Redha je la.
PS: To those who dont get what I was talking about, dont bother cracking your head trying to figure out what it meant. It was just word vomit, actually alot of vomit.